i want someone to love me, FR WHO I AM.

i want someone to need me, is tht so bad?

its been a year since you left but the feeling of missing you had never die. i missed you. :'(

nazreen shah.

happy 17th birthday. :) you are 17 and tht makes us equal. muehehe. sooo have a great day and live your life to the fullest. and ohh, the pic you've sent me, the AMN thingg. tht was totally cute. but i wont upload it bcs im uglyyyy. haha.

new look. muehehe

vandalising the wall. the best i can do. muehehe. the last day in school. :( rinduuuuuuuuuuu.

last time i dnt easily make friends. and i used to have bad thoughts bout people. and in turns, those people whom i used to say bad things, becoming my friends. i mean, bestfriends. and i knw im wrong. i have reasons fr tht but enough of explanations. i admit tht im wrong. maybe some of you guys who knew this would be like very upset and dissapointed with me. so yeahhh. i had admit it and im sorry okayyyyyyyyyy? muehehe.

do you know the feeling when you say I LOVE YOU to someone and they turn out to say who are you to tell me you love me? do you knw the feeling when you had a crush on someone and the guy said tht he is a gay? or do you knw the feeling when ppl always tease you with bad words? do you even knw the feeling of being treated like special but they turn out to have a crush on your bestfriend? this are the feelings i cant even describe and it really kills me. :)

im sorry tht ive deleted most of my posts. i just want to find my new me and forget bout the past. i think tht my last post were like so inappropriate and i whomever i used to curse, im sorry. i will try to be better and im slowly trying. thnks fr muzakkir bcs he is the one who had realised me much whenever i done wrong. not to forget to all my friends, thnks fr being supportive and patient with my stupid behaviours. :)

we may be look up as a nerdies but we're not. :) i do missed all the time we had especially who had been with me fr like 5years. form 5 was like the most unforgettable year. we did so much things together. vandalising and break the sch rules. haha. its fun to know and to be with you all. my heart will always remains in 5amal. i love you guys. :)

nur athirah ahmad nadzri.

"a person i grew up with, a person i share everything with, a person that i look up to, a person that words cannot be described, a person that i share my good && bad times. last but not least, she is a person that i really love (funny, LOUD,stubborn,sleepyhead,up to date)". ~Ary.

we've been bestfriends since like we're born. i cant imagine how am i gonna be without you bcs you are the best cousin ever. thnks fr being there fr me through my ups and downs. she always give me courage and being my shoulder to cry. we LOL and share happiness together and i do love you too. :)

im sure missed the old us, :) i love you guys. guess which is me? muehehe
p/s: to lubby, nnt kalau kita webcam i snap pic kita pulak naaa? haha

i finally realised tht they had grown up.

ahmad haziq,
rarely at home. susah nk sembang ngn dia. main badminton lah, gitar lah, drum lah. mcm pandai sangat. muehehe

ahmad aniq,
playing online games like a maniac. ohh my! main sampai tak igt dunia. this one, tak cukup hp. telefon rumah dia guna smpai bill naik. call sapa pon tatau laa.

ahmad muqri,
'kak, bila nk buat facebook kt adik?' fyi, he's only 4yrs old. :)

times sure flies fast huh? i love you brothers. :)

i loikeee. :)

i think im in love but this feelings sure gives me nightmare. :)

random facts.

i would rather sleep thn eat. :)

korean, japanese and chinese tv series or movies dnt entertain me.

i extremely had a phobia on cockroaches!

i hate kids aged 5 to 10 years old. :)

i used to hate schools but now i missed them. grr

i am addicted to facebook.

i dnt sleep at night. HAHA

i can live without my handphone fr a week. :)

i cant live without my friends and family.

i love cats but i suffer from allergies when i touch them.

i would cry on silly things.

most of my friends are juniors. (im old i know)

i would seems quiet but when you know me, im not.

i love to laugh fr god sake.

im weird.

i prefer pepsi than coke.

i drinks milo everyday. :)

i dont take my breakfast.

is it possible fr a boy and a girl to be bestfriends fr like forever?

can we make like more than one bestfriends?

back these days, i keep vommiting. haha. well this is bacause i am worried about my results. i am wayyyy so nervous. and everytime i gets nervous, i puked. (i know im weird) how can i face the world with less a's? i know success comes in every failure. but idk wht should i do. ive been acting weird past few weeks. been to sleep damn early and awake fr like daysss. ohh my. i still keep thinking bout my results! if my results are sucks i will be invisible i tell you. haha. i am full of regret tht i used to play last time. quit tuition and being like 24/7 in front of the monitor. *BIG SIGHHH. i am counting days till the big dayy. it will be like 600hours! im freaked outttt. *faint

better off talking craps. bye!

last time when i was a kid, i used to sleep at my granny's house. and i still remember tht i used to be such a naughty girl. hahah. the favourite part was i always get bullied by my cousins. its really fun though to remember. and of course hilarious. :) there was this time when all of us decided to play basketball. i was trying to get the ball and i was standing below the net and guess wht? my cousin throw the ball like fuckingly hard and the net fell on my head and all i knew i was screaming like hell and running calling makktokkkk. hahah. they were all laughing at me and yeahhh we still did laugh about tht thinggg till now.

ohh ohh there was this time when i was playing with my dear cousin ary, she said tht if we put the colgate on our lips it will be beautiful and i really did tht. and i was too stupid tht i dnt want to wash my lips. i go to bed with my lips covered with colgate. haha. the next morning, my granny was like 'OMG she's sickkk, later when she woke up lets get her to the doctor'. haha. and i told her tht it was the colgate and guess wht, i get a free slap. haha. yayy me. :)

it was such a lovely one to remember. we all had grown up and doing our own thing. its hard to gather back then under one roof.

best boyfriends. :D

muzakkir zamani.

nazreen shah.

i hope tht you two wont frustrated me like any other guys i used to know. friends forever shall we? :D

2009 confessions.

I...
(x) stayed single for the whole year
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
(x) broke someone else's heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) thought you were pregnant
(x) done something you've regretted
(x) lost faith in love
( )kissed under a mistletoe
( )kill something/someone

CAMPUS
(x) broke the dress code
( ) got a summone
( ) met one teacher you really like
(x) met one teacher you really hated
( ) failed a class
(x) skipped school/class
(x) did something you were proud of
( ) discovered a new talent
(x) embarrassed yourself in front of the class
( ) fell in love with a teacher
(x) were involved in something you'll never forget
( )made a voodoo doll to torture a lecturer

OTHER
( ) ran a mile
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn't stand
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren't
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
(x)cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I...
(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
( ) met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
(x) given up something important to you
(x) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life(I DO) found out who your true friends were
( )messed up the house
( )plan something big and it worked!
( )overnight will friends until next morning
(x)midnight movies
(x) met great people
(x) cried over the silliest thing
( ) was never home on weekends
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
(x) had someone close to you die
( ) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
(x) had a fight
( ) went to the beach with your best friend
(x) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
(x) became closer with a lot of people

as a conclusion, i am some kind of loserr. :D i try to cherish every single day but it just didnt work out. i am regret to wht i did and its wrong. i forgive to all people who made me angry and apologise fr my wrongdoings. i am greatful to be given a chance to meet great people such as my english teacher and to know my family and friends better. i love them all. and mostly to 5 Amal members; we are a great team and we rocks! :D lots of love frm me, atiqah. :) and ohhh not to forget, i am 17 on 17 in the year 2009. :)

farewell dinner '09.

3days ago there was this event. the so-called promnight of form fives. i had register my name but unfortunately i had to turn it off cause i had an accident and my feet was extremely hurt. it was a blast party and i missed it. T.T

yesterday was a history.

last day of school. my classmates vandalised the wall of 5 amal. hahah, i was a great time. sadly, the pictures had gone missing. so i cant upload the photo. sighhh* btw, past few days, ive been so naughty. there nothing left to be done since spm dh abess (nada dalam cita KAMI the movie) hahah. many things did happened to me. and whtever. im still survive. fr now i am craving to get my driving license. i wonder wht will i do fr the next 6 months of holidays. its been about 15days to 2010 and im turning 18. i hope 2010 will be a better year. :)

count down to find FREEDOM! :)

3 more weeks. wish me luck! :D

something if it is just meant to be missing it will be missing. we just cant stop it.

music and lyrics.

they came along with each other. and that makes them strong. :)

09 EID.

see, ths are my members and i love them so much! :D

amigo querido :)

ILY, HAHA. ;D

ILY. ;D

finally i knw who's important and who's not. FAMILY do come first, thanks and i love you members. ;D

GADOH!

ths short film is fun. you should watch. ;D it is a story about racism in schools among teenagers (chinese and malays). they are discriminate and being stuck bcs of their own personal problems.

*malay forms.

aku tak faham kenapa filem macam ni, macam filem KAMI dibanned oleh kaum atasan, bagi mereka filem-filem ni menjatuhkan lagi manusia. tapi bagi aku, mungkin mereka tidak faham apa yg cuba disampaikan. remaja, mereka hanya ingin cerita mereka disampaikan. kerana satu sebab, sebab mereka memerlukan manusia lain untuk memahami mereka. tapi sebaliknya, mereka diapandang rendah sebab filem-filem seperti ini dikeluarkan. kenapa semua org jadi bodoh? selalu fikir cetek tanpa usul periksa. padahal, semua org tahu, perkara perkara ni memang reliti dan tidak dapat dinafikan. jadi kenapa harus kita bersembunyi? malu sebab perbuatan kita sendiri?

maaf aku tak boleh nk upload review kt sini. intai lah sendiri kt youtube. haha. bye. ;D

happy eid folks. ;D

selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin.

sorry wehh kalau aku ada wat salah ngn semua org.